I'm afraid that resting in God's grace may be the reason I haven't been obsessively reading my Bible in days or haven't talked to the Lord all week! SOURCE
Does this fear sound familiar? Has the too-good-to-be-true syndrome caused YOU to question a grace that seems to hinder good things? I sure hope so, because a grace that does not shake your religious mindset is NOT the grace of Christ.
"OBSESSIVELY" is a good word to describe perhaps most Bible reading, and the lack of OBSESSION sounds like real freedom to me. So, what is it that you haven't picked up in days, the Bible or the OBSESSION? Does one need the other?
I remember an old ad campaign that claimed, "A day with Florida orange juice is like a day without sunshine". Well, I'm a Floridian and I rarely drink Florida orange juice, and yet the sun still shines for me - from the inside! A day without Florida orange juice is simply a day without Florida orange juice.
A day without OBSESSIVE Bible reading is freedom, but a day without Bible reading is simply a day without Bible reading. The fact that you don't FEEL like reading it seems to indicate that you are reacting against the whole concept of a law-driven bondage. Ah, yes, resting in His grace might easily steer you clear of that law-bound OBSESSION!! And the panic? Panic doesn't come from God, but from a striving according to the flesh.
Regarding this lack of talking to the Lord, what if it's actually a PERCEPTION you are becoming aware of? Believe me, I know the fear, because I had developed a familiar pattern to gauge my communication with God. As God's grace caused my formulas to become irrelevant I was left with a sense of lack because my measuring stick was still telling me that I was missing something. But those perceptions had ALWAYS suggested I was missing something, but by adopting formulas I pacified those fears giving me the illusion I was doing the best I could (I won't try to convince you of this because you have beat yourself up over it too many times to deny it, huh?).
Rest assured that the Spirit within you KNOWS how to communicate with the Father because otherwise you and I haven't a clue!! And consider: if you could give a drink of water to the "least of these my brethren" and really be giving it to Christ, then is it at all possible that if you communicate to the least of these my brethren that you may actually be communicating with the Father? Hmmmm? :)
True communication with God happens in spite of our attempts to produce it by OBSESSIVE religious performance. It's a shame to be so unaware of the reality of HIS miraculous working because of our OBSESSIVE formulas.