I hate confusion, I want simple answers. I want those answers to be consistent and I don't want them to change from day to day. I don't like the "grey area", I want things either black or white. I want truth to be a fixed reality so that I can know without a shadow of doubt that life is as certain as knowing that 1+1=2. Somehow though, over the years confusion has resisted my every effort to avoid it, and living has convinced me that life is not as predictable as simple mathematics.
In 1972, I took my only college computer course, and it about drove me nuts! As each lesson got more complex I got more confused. Through a little chit-chat, I discovered that my classmates lacked the confusion that was stressing me out. I mean, I was learning and doing the lessons, but my "inbox" was filling up faster than I could process it!
With a couple weeks to go, the teacher asked for a show of hands on our progress, and I sunk down in my chair. All hands were raised for the earlier lessons, but gradually dropped as he continued. Slowly I realized I was in a very small group, and was in total shock to find I was the ONLY one still raising his hand! The teacher said, "Well, the rest of you know who to ask for help." I WAS BAFFLED!!
The point is that I ASSUMED no one else had any problems based on their seeming lack of confusion. I have since come to realize that I am the most confused about a particular thing when I am actually understanding it!! Why the confusion? Simply that in seeing clearly I have become aware of a multitude of ramifications connected to each new understanding. But by comparing myself to others the inevitable confusion became compounded so that all I could see was failure. The comparative confusion is what keeps us living in defeat, but the reasonable confusion of displaced perceptions in the face of a new reality is a wonderful thing.
In Christ, we haven't been given a new batch of "truth", but have been brought into a new reality. That reality is Christ, and He IS truth. Why are we so quick to assume that confusion only indicates something has gone wrong? Don't we know that the outworking of His life within us is going to clash with those established habits, reactions, routines, and patterns of thought that have been built upon the old rationale? Everything we see in Christ is opening wide expanses before us of a life that runs contrary to all we have known in this world. So be comforted in the knowledge that another chunk of the old perception is getting dislodged. Let the confusion remind you that you are but a stranger in a world that bases its understanding and worth upon what it can figure out, and not in what it really is.