After a particularly tough weekend I met up with a friend in a pub for a talk last night. At the end of it he prayed with me and I was filled with the most amazing feeling..it was beautiful and I did not imagine it. It was like a warm honey flowing through me.... I can only describe it as being filled with the spirit... When it was over I felt so refreshed and on fire for God...I was praising him all the way home...just buzzing on the grace, goodness and love and call of God for my life and the revelation that I was where I am today because of him and his work in my life and his reality...it was amazing!! I've always been so anti that sort of thing..people shaking and crying etc, Id be like get a 'grip man'...but I cant deny what happened. I also feel that God has been answering all my questions about my life within me..what happened, why, where Im going, his call on my life... Is what im experiencing OK???....cause if it is I want more! Ray
It's a wonderful thing to feel refreshed and complete in the reality of the living Christ ... and you're wondering if it's okay, are you? :) I have come to intensely enjoy many such emotional sensations in this reality of being alive to God, though I don't think the emotional sensations equate to the filling of the Spirit.
In the reality of our being filled with God's Spirit we might find ourselves often in the place where our feelings are painful, and even in this I have found myself thankful for the "experience"! haha! I think the real concern is found when we end up seeking only for the "good" feelings ... as if they are the "filling". It's easy to fall into a formulaic approach in hopes of reproducing the experience that you can never ever get back again.
Life often feels lonley and uncertain and scary and I am plauged by doubt, regret and longings for her all the time but it sure beats the sorry excuse for a life I was living before. Ray
Never forget that the powerful emotions that recently hit you are not isolated from what you describe above, for they are all part of the overall "experience". I encourage you to treasure the times of emotional dulldrums and the painful aspects of life in the same manner as the "good" experiences, for you will find that they compliment one another. Don't expect your next good feeling to hit you in the same way or especially not from the same set up (as in after a prayer, etc). I have been blown away numerous times while watching a movie, or witnessing a sunrise, or after having been emotionally drained, etc. I have often received such refreshment while answering an email or sitting around discussing the reality of Christ in a small (or large) group ... though I have also found a total absence of that hoped for sensation in the same. There is just no formula ... there is only life!!